It's been 3 years since I have revisited this blog. To be honest, I completely forgot I had it. It once serviced as a source of therapy for me at a very transitional time in my life and here it is three years later; I find myself needing such an outlet again but for very different reasons.
So much has changed in my life the past three years, and as I read over previous posts it became abundantly obvious that the person I am today holds just a glimmer of who I was then. The important things stayed... my strong personality traits, curiosity, sense of humor and hunger for life...they remain. But as I relive the stories of my past I can't help but notice the differences in my thinking, friends, and overall view on the world...although, I must use these experiences as part of the source of change. Some has come from life experience, some from new education and knowledge, and some just from the changes that come from living life. To be honest, the world has tainted me some, I have experienced heartbreak and confusion in ways I never would imagine possible...but what I have learned is most of the good in my life has come from walking through fire and seeing what life has to offer on the other side. I regret nothing. There are always things I will want to change on this journey but I love the person I was, I'm quite a fan of the person I am now... and I am looking forward to seeing who I will become.
In all my re-reading and self discovery, I noticed one thing that I feel will always remain constant.. 3 years ago I named this blog "Reinvented Dreams" because my life was changing so drastically. All the dreams I had once dreamt were gone and new ones had taken their place. I started writing because I was having a hard time letting those dreams go and allowing the new ones to arise and take flight in my heart. I sit here today realizing the same thing as I did back then, only with more understanding than I could have imagined. The hopes and dreams I had 3 years ago have been reinvented again. I see the evidence of them in the new dreams in my heart but I am also aware of the alterations. It's amazing how God puts things in your heart and then molds it with time to fit his plan. I didn't understand this process 3 years ago and felt abandoned and hurt by God for seemingly ripping all my hearts desires away. But as I look back, that isn't what he did at all... it didn't happen how I wanted it, but God has stayed true to his promises. The dreams he put in my heart are still there, but are constantly being reinvented into bigger and better things.
For all of these reasons, I have decided to begin writing again. Before it was 100% for me..this time I'm hoping to offer a little bit of knowledge, wisdom, or insight to the world. Let's be real, there are PLENTY of people on this planet that are far more equipped to be giving advice or wisdom than me but I tend to have a way of correlating life into situations so if someone can gain something from my ramblings then that would be ideal. Also, I am a sponge for knowledge. I love it and always look for more so I'm hoping this blog can service as an outlet for that as well. I would love to share my thoughts, but more importantly, I want to learn from others.
So here's a little bit of my back story... I am a Marketing student at Oral Roberts University and I love all that is business. I tend to look at the world through the eyes of a 1/3 therapist,1/3 closet evangelist, 1/3 business mogul. I'm that nerdy kid that gets all giddy at new business books and could talk for hours about marketing strategies, human behavior, theoretical issues, therefore, there is a good chance most of my ramblings will include one of the three...if not all. I have 3 jobs to help pay my way through school, one of which is a marketing internship that I LOOOVE . My life is extremely fast paced so I writing things down helps me decipher the world around me and put it into perspective. I don't know if this blog will help anyone or just service as another outlet for my crazy mind to process life.
But here it goes.
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