Physical Representations

I was watching this psychology show the other day dealing with communication. There was this couple that was on the brink of divorce because all they did was yell at each other. One of the things the psychologist did was make them write down issues they needed to discuss on a piece of paper and discuss each of them calmly until they came up with a solution. Then once it was resolved, they had to rip up the paper and never talk about it again.

I was thinking about how people so often need a physical representation to fully accept change. Like being baptized. That is a physical representation of your new life with Christ. Or the couple with the ripped up paper representing the end of that discussion. I, myself have needed a physical representation to let go of something or to accept a change in my life.

My question…

Why is it that people need a physical representation to get past their struggles or fully accept the change in their lives or situations??



I’m cutting my hair off…
I need a change.

Missing you

Things are going well here.
I have been missing a lot of people lately.
It's so hard not being able to see them everyday.

I didn't realize just how much I miss certain people until I started seeing them everywhere. I thought I heard Catie laugh in Starbucks a few days ago. I turned around and it definitly wasn't her. I thought I saw Lynnie in a car next to me at a red light until the lady turned around...not her again. And the weirdest one was there was a guy riding a bike down the sidewalk with a windmill hat on and I could have sworn it was Dave Hasz. Ridiculious huh? Could you even imagine him wearing a windmill hat?? haha

I thought I was going crazy (honestly maybe I am) but I think it's just me missing these people so much. It's weird, some (Mr. Hasz) I didn't even realize I missed that much. But it's pretty obvious I do. Even though it's been 7 months, I'm still having a hard time getting readjusted to life at home. Things aren't even close to being the same as when I left. It's like starting over completely but not really having anywhere to start.

I have things to do to fill my time... 2 jobs, Young Life, school...but its hard to find those kind of people to share it with. I have yet to find anyone at home that is remotely like my friends at the Honor Academy. I hate to put them in that category but its hard not to when everyone I meet is so different. I spend more time defending what I did at the Honor Academy, what I believe, how I act, etc. than anything else. I guess I'm just tired spiritually. And with no one here for me to talk to (really talk to), laugh with and just let my guards down and be myself with...it tends to drain me.

I need a friend that understands me completely. That I can hang out with and not feel uncomfortable. Someone that will keep me accountable and I can keep accountable. Just someone to laugh with. I want to be happy. I try really hard to be happy but it's so hard trying to do it alone. I will keep my trust in God and believe that He is leading me in the direction He wants me to go. At this point, that's all I can do.