Time

Life seems to be moving in such a rapid pace its almost impossible to keep up. People would always tell me that growing up is hard but fast. "One minute you're a kid with no cares in the world and the next you're an adult and you never even see it coming".

When people would say this I would usually just smile and nod. I never really believed them. But over the past year it seems like my whole life and everything I have known for the past 20 years is changing. People are growing up, getting married, having babies, moving away...I'm having to make decisions that will affect my entire life (probably the most stressful thing ever!).

I don't know, sometimes I just feel like I'm trying to hold on to the way things are and the people I love and the tighter I hold on the farther and faster they slip away. I want to move on in my life, get older, grow up...but at the same time I know that when I move on, so do they. I want them to come with me. I hate that most of my closest friends in the world are only connected to me by phone calls. I want them to be here.

All you that are so much wiser than I, you are right. Time flies by so fast. I just want to make sure I don't miss it.

"Time is a monster that cannot be reasoned with" ~Joe Wentworth

I leave for Garden Valley, Texas in 3 days. I am soo excited to see all of the people that I have missed so much over the past 7 months. But at the same time I know it's going to be bitter sweet. This weekend could very well be the last time I see all these people, together all in one place at the same time again. My heart breaks when I think of that.

So I won't.